Wednesday, September 24, 2008

And away we go....

So I have wanted to start blogging for a long time, but it has always been much like keeping a journal to me, which I have never done for an extended period of time. But, as someone who really has no idea what I am going to do with my life, I really do think I need to do something that will give me insight into myself and the person I want to be. If I find it through blogging and just expressing my thoughts and feelings to the world wide web, then yay!!! If not, then it's really nothing lost, right?

I got the idea for the title from the most recent Tyler Perry movie, The Family that Preys. I feel a little silly about picking a blog title from a movie, but it was a quote that really made me think. Right now, today, I would say I am definitely not living, I am just existing.

I work at Starbucks, which I hate, but cannot leave until I find another job. I'm not willing to just find any another job, though, because I don't want to work at some other bullshit, waste of my time job. I want something that will help me find out what I want to do for the rest of my life. Although, I guess if I really think about it, I can successfully say I do not want to work in the food/customer service industry. But I kind of already knew that, otherwise I wouldn't have bothered going to Berkeley.

I have been thinking about law school for a long time now, longer than most people know. After touring a few and talking to some students, I don't know if it's for me. While the schools seem great, I just don't know if it's what I want to do. I think that the law is really interesting and anyone who knows me knows I like to argue, but is that something I want to do on a daily basis? I just don't know...

It's hard to believe that I've been out of school for almost a year. This time last year, I was getting ready to go to Santa Barbara for Halloween and getting ready to graduate. I feel like I haven't really done anything, other than work at Starbucks, which in my opinion is really not something that consider "doing something." I guess the only think I can do is keep trying to live, instead of exist....